Inspiring Students
I have a new student.
Teaching him is the most rewarding thing that I do in my week just
now. He has been ill, really quite ill
for more than a decade. His body is weak
and wonky and he has a prolapsed disc in his lower back, an unhealthily tilted
pelvis and a smorgasbord of ailments all over his body. When I arrive, his breath moves only in the
very top of his chest, and as he speaks his breath comes in short gasps that
interrupt his sentences and make it sound like he has just stopped running, even though he is standing there totally at rest in the middle of
his living room. He always starts by
telling me how he has been – what has been hurting, what has been pulled, which
part of himself has twanged or feels out of joint. He hurts himself at the gym, or when he is standing
for too long talking to a friend in a bar, or at the cinema when
he sits still for more than half an hour.
He has stomach pain and bloating, for which he takes medicine that gives
him migraines. He has been living with
pain for a long time. For almost as long
as my son has been alive. He has tried
ignoring it. He has tried doing
something about it. He has been to
doctors and consultants and physiotherapists and personal trainers and pilates
teachers. He has become an expert on the
vagaries of his body. But he is still in
pain.
Then he went on holiday and there were free yoga classes in
the hotel, so he went along to a couple of them and he felt different. He loved it.
And when he lay in savasana at the end of the class, it was as though something within him had
come to life again; he felt more at ease in his body than he had
done for years; he was relaxed.
When he got home he called me.
What is so very rewarding about teaching this man is that
when I arrive in his house he is pale and his body is tight, usually he is in
pain. But after an hour of very gentle and
specific yoga his face has a healthful flush, he is
smiling and his eyes are shining. When I
look at him after he has practised I can believe in reincarnation, for his body
loves and responds to yoga in such a profound way that it is as though he has practised yoga in a
former life.
I look at him and the clarity in his eyes and I think to myself that his
body is crying out for yoga; he soaks it up like a sponge; his energy starts to
move again; he looks and feels better.
It is a wonderful thing to witness.
I don’t teach him every week (he is not always around) and
sometimes with a private student, this can be frustrating… they don’t see you
for three weeks and they don’t practise in between times, so every lesson is
the first lesson. It is potentially
frustrating for me and for them. But
every time I leave this student, I leave him with a simple programme of very specific
exercises to open and strengthen his body and to improve his breathing and
he does it; he actually finds time every day to do at least some yoga.
His body knows what his mind is catching up with – that he
has already been all around the houses seeking a cure and an explanation for
his pain; he has a masters degree in the workings of his own body; but in his yoga
practice he is learning how to do the most beneficial, the most important thing
that any of us can do in our lives, he is learning how to listen to his own
body; how to tune into his own innate wisdom about himself; he is learning how
to be well.
I love that he approaches his practice with absolute
humility: not for him the gymnastics and egocentric contortions that many of us
seek from yoga asana, particularly in the beginning, he wants to work simply
and steadily and to build his strength slowly and with patience, he knows that
the gifts of yoga will not come in a flash; he knows that there are no quick
fixes for him (for anyone). But he has
felt within himself that yoga works and he has taken responsibility for his
practice and for his own recovery. He
continues to seek the advice of doctors and health professionals and to heed
it, but only in addition to what he hears from his own self.
I am so grateful to be able to teach this man and am
reminded every time I leave that we teach what we most need to learn, and that
our students teach us more than we could ever hope to teach them. His humility, openness and beginner’s mind are
an inspiration; the glow of his cheeks when I leave, the deeper resonance of
his breath, the greater ease with which he moves are a testament to his
commitment to practice; he wants to find a way to help himself be well and the
path that has found him is yoga. It is my very great fortune to be able, in some small measure, to help him on his way.
Hi Sarah,
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing this experience.
It is good (and not surprising) to hear how well your ailing student is responding to yoga.
Yoga accesses areas of pain that are not limited to the physical. It calms the mind and restores inner peaces when we are buffeted by the storm that can be family or professional life. Breathing through stressful positions and then releasing blocked energy is the most curative experience I have had the good fortune to undertake.
Peace be with you.